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my man from germany

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I met a man from Germany who had come here to photograph birds, trash and doors. He spoke perfect English and me, an English girl, well he loved me. I showed him around and took him to all of the most aesthetically pleasing places I knew. He wasn't interested in the places though. He simply wanted to photograph everyday life and candid moments. The langweilige wunder, and me. He shot and he shot and he shot. Me holding an ice-cream. Me on the sidewalk. Me admiring shop window displays. Me in the bath. Me playing my piano. One day, when he'd gone out photographing on his own, I was home alone. I took to exploring his albums one by one. He had so many, of course. He knew how to capture so much in one frame. I looked at dozens of strangers that afternoon and felt an overwhelming sense of intimacy with them, whilst not knowing a single thing about them, their name, their occupation... anything. It was pure magic. Then tucked away was a final album I may have miss

I Promise

Time is a great healer, but so is laughter. Living in the moment and forgetting works wonders. Accepting and moving on fixes things better. Pain is hard to overcome. So, no matter what you do to overcome it or how you do it - it will get better soon. I promise.

Stabilizer

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When I was a kid the stabilizers on a bike annoyed the hell out of me. Why were they there - I thought. I can do this ON MY OWN. As I grew up I understood more and more why they need to be there. By this time, of course I outgrew them. But it made me think - we need stabilizers for everything. Nothing is easy at first. Everything becomes better with practice apart from one thing, or two. Falling in love and letting someone go. You, you and you.

This Time

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I wish it were easy, the love between you and I but it's not, and that makes me cry. It makes me question the world, I want to yell 'why'? I wish it were easy life after love but it's not, as I go about my day never feeling good enough. It makes me question the world, I want to yell 'why is it so tough'? I wish it were easy falling for a man but it's not, it never goes to plan. It makes me question the world, I want to yell 'why is this part of the lifespan'? So, next time before I've even started to fall I swear, I'm going to end it all.

love

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I feel too much of every feeling but love? Love fucks you up. Love comes at you with no warning and swallows you whole. So, be warned. You can't eat, you can't sleep, you can't think. Everything seems beautiful and you'd think gee, isn't that great but love is dangerous, love is blind. Love sometimes isn't true. and that's why I hate that I love you...

The tree outside my window

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The trees like it best when there's a storm. The wind gives them the freedom to dance. The rain gives them the power to sing. Yet, the human ear simply hears cackles and screams. Whilst they're having the time of their life, all we can think is; are they in pain? Why do they cry? Do you think they hurt inside? Maybe we do this to make our pain more bearable, because if everything that surrounds us is dead too - being sad can't all be so bad, can it?

The Sad Truth

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There's nothing more beautiful then putting into words how you feel about someone. Comparing them to your favorite flower, book, song and allowing yourself to let go Imagining a world where you could have something you love so dear, so close, forever but it doesn't last forever your flower will eventually die and your new book may get lost your song gets remade to a different beat and just like that, things change. Unfortunately this is how love works. Love is replaceable The Sad Truth.